Day 25: Moving Day

In professional golf, ‘moving day’ is the second-to-last day of the tournament, where the golfers are said to need to ‘make their move’ to get themselves in contention on the last day with a chance to win.

Today is moving day for me for a couple of reasons, the first being quite literal: the people who have lived with us for over a year moved out today into their own home, to the relief of both them and us. It has opened up space–both physical living space and also the mental/emotional space that has been a dissonance of differing lifestyles, now quickly evaporating.

For me, it is an opportunity–hence, figuratively my moving day–to move into a higher degree of focus in my quest for the prize, my ability to be fully present and to manifest. Indeed, it feels a lot like the second-to-last day in a tournament I have been playing in all my life. And it also feels like humanity’s second-to-last day too, as I alluded to yesterday in terms of a global awakening.


Kellen Enos

My opportunity has come to make my living space into a reflection of the wholeness and peace one feels when one is in the present, connected to the universe. And, now that my wife has started work and I am taking care of our one-year-old son Kellen, I look forward to really integrating what I am doing and who I am being into this wholeness and peace. It has only been a couple of days, but already, while I would say that taking care of a baby is not easy, I can already feel that I will be able to make it a peaceful and joyful experience.

And so while we haven’t moved (not yet anyway, as we are moving May 1st), in a sense I already feel like we have moved into a new space, with all the new possibilities and experiences awaiting us–not the least of which will be a new-found focus on the abundance that is present in our lives already, highlighted by the beautiful bundle of joy I have the privilege of caring for.

Day 24: Awakening to Conscious Evolution

One of the main reasons I am writing this blog is the belief that humanity is at the precipice of awakening from a deep slumber, one that has had us give away our awareness of the ultimate truth of oneness in order to have an intense experience of separateness and hence, our own individuality. I wanted to be part of the conversation that helps move people away from continuing to think and act based on acquired (and false) subconscious belief systems that have kept us feeling small and powerless, towards the realization that if we let go of these false beliefs we will be able to truly see that we have had all the power all along to manifest the world of our choosing.

Hence my own personal work learning more about the process of removing the negative ‘sponsoring’ beliefs that have kept us down and putting into play the inspiring, life-affirming intentions that will allow us to fulfill our joint mission to create heaven on Earth. There really is a complete symbiosis between personal evolution and global evolution, giving rise to the oft-heard saying that if you want to change the world, change yourself.

Bruce Lipton

Bruce Lipton

In a way, I believe there is some inevitability about both our own personal evolution and the evolution of humanity and the planet as a whole. I believe that part of the organizing intelligence of the universe has it that we all have the innate intention to evolve, something that Bruce Lipton in his book Spontaneous Evolution gives credence to. He speaks of a recent scientific involving the reaction of a certain bacteria in an environment that does not allow for its proliferation.While Darwinian evolutionary principles maintain that evolution is the result of random mutation, this study demonstrates that when a bacteria is put under stress in a new environment and its own survival is at risk, it will actively produce a multitude of mutations of the gene whose expression is causing the problem. While the sequence of the mutations is random, once a mutated gene is found that promotes survival better, the organism slots in this mutated gene to replace the original one, and stops replicating gene mutations. In other words, the organism had the intelligence to determine which gene worked in the stressful environmental conditions, and hence prompted its own evolution.

As humans, we are on a course to evolve. But wouldn’t it be more fun for those playing an active role in it? As the most highly complex organism in the world, the next step in our evolution represents something magical: full consciousness of our own co-creative powers of the universe we live in. In other words, it is the moment we come to know ourselves as gods.

Synchronicity Alert #2: I went back to snooker yesterday, for the first time since winning the 50/50 draw, and lo and behold, I won it again! $60 this time. This is starting to get fun!

Day 23: Be in Bliss

In connection with yesterday’s ‘Follow Your Bliss’ recommendation from Joseph Campbell is something of a corollary: ‘Be in Bliss’, meaning experience bliss in this moment, under these circumstances. It might seem contradictory for us to talk about experiencing bliss in the moment while also seeking for bliss in terms of some future condition that is not present. This speaks to the misconception that ‘if we can be happy/blissful under the present circumstances, we would have no motivation to seek to change or do anything.’ This false idea keeps people in the cycle of actually creating a present moment that is unsatisfactory with the belief that it is necessary fuel for our push to create a more satisfactory future. In fact, it usually keeps us mired in dissatisfaction.

There is no contradiction between experiencing the bliss of the now and being excited by the prospect of creating something desirable that will manifest in the future. One could almost say that the more bliss we have in the present, the more quickly we are able to bring on any manifestation we choose by our intentions. And so we identify two conditions which must be met for successful manifestation from intention. The one most talked about surrounds simply getting to know what we want, and framing our thoughts/words/action around a clear intention. The other, less talked about aspect, is that we need to be internally healed. What I mean by this is that our negative thought patterns, our shadow, which can often be submerged below the level of our consciousness, can represent our ‘real intentions’, and can often overpower the intentions we put out consciously. Unless these thought patterns are changed or more properly ‘healed’, our lives are destined to be controlled by them, and we will continue to manifest our lives from those negative beliefs.


Brian Ramsell

Hence the component of spiritual work in our ability to manifest from conscious desire and intention. I just read a post by Brian Ramsell as he describes his long-time search for enlightenment, and a recent realization: “The bliss I imagined all those years ago is starting to appear in my experience; but not as something that just swoops down from the sky and rescues me from my shadow. Instead it is something I am creating, by un-creating, or letting go of, all the barriers I had built that had obscured it.”

Those barriers he talks about, those thoughts and beliefs that keep us disconnected from our universe and unable to love unconditionally in all directions, need to be let go of as part of the process. For once they are, we will see that we have been connected all along, that we have had the power to manifest all along, and we had just all done a great job of convincing ourselves that this power was something outside of ourselves. More to come on the actual practice of healing detrimental beliefs and thought patterns in future posts.

Day 22: Follow Your Bliss

The momentum is building, I can feel it. Yesterday’s insight is indeed one cornerstone that this work will be founded on. My optimism today has led me to reflect back on my life and my choices in a more positive way. That is to say, instead of listening to the voice of regret that I have not saved up money until now, I am reminded that I have been living a persistent theme ever since graduating from high school. The theme: “Follow Your Bliss.”


Joseph Campbell

The phrase originates from Joseph Campbell, who in his seminal work “The Hero With a Thousand Faces” documents cultural myths from all over the world over and finds that they have a remarkable point of similarity: the embodiment of what he calls ‘The Hero’s Journey’. Essentially, Campbell believes that these myths are in place in virtually every culture of the world to reinforce the idea that every individual is on their own particular hero’s journey, where they have a purpose or a destiny to fulfill that requires courage, humility, openness, and the full exertion of the hidden skills and strengths that that individual has. One of our guidestones is the recognition of our ‘bliss’, that which we love to do, which if followed relentlessly will lead us to fulfill our destiny for this life.

When I graduated from high school, I didn’t follow all my friends into the pure and applied science program. Rather, having experienced a smidgen of philosophy and drama in a course on Greek History in grade 11, I followed my desire to learn about philosophy and psychology in CEGEP (Junior College). When it came to university, I again followed my heart over my head and enrolled in a Liberal Arts College program with concentration on Philosophy, followed by a Master’s Degree in Philosophy. By the end of that, I was tired of the restrictions of formal education, and when told that going into a PhD program in philosophy would give me the best chance of getting a job in the Philosophy Department as a full-time professor, I balked. I wanted to write, I wanted to be creative, and the idea of being stuck in what I saw as a rather restricting system didn’t appeal to me. So then I had to face the real world, deal with having to make money, and it was tough. However, I did pursue a computer programming certificate and was delighted to be slotted into a full-time job after graduating at the top of my class. At first, I thrived and I loved applying my mind to all the challenges and learning opportunities faced by a programmer. Eventually, however, I saw that the corporate culture wasn’t a really good fit for me. I had found an interest in writing plays for a local charitable group, and wanted to getaway from programming so I could focus on writing. After hearing from a friend about the possibility of teaching English in Korea, I went headlong into it. I stayed there over 2 years and even met a girl and got married. Coming back to Canada, I kept trying to find my bliss: I worked in a non-profit Drama Society, then moved to Toronto as my wife got a job there and started the project of my dreams: writing a book. My first experience of it was an abject failure, but after restocking my funds with another year teaching in Korea, I went into a Life Coaching program (which I love but wasn’t able to make a career out of) and from there launched the book I did complete after over 4 years called “Parables for the New Conversation”. When I saw that the book helped make me some money but would not give me a full-time income, I eventually dove into filmmaking with the hopes that I could make a career out of that. While again I did some good work there and learned a tremendous amount, it didn’t look like it was an avenue for a full-time career. By then, my wife had started a side business selling all-natural face and body products ( which I dove into by creating a website and taking over some of the responsibilities. The business still chugs along with several loyal customers, but I realized recently that working on this business myself was not following my bliss. And so, with the birth of our son, my becoming a stay-at-home dad, this experimental project came to mind. And I’m just starting to feel the bliss! (To be followed by the money haha)

A little longer than usual (sorry!), but it just seemed a right time to look back on my life and realize that there is a design to it and that I have always stayed true to myself. I believe that will pay off for me as I keep staying open to learning about how to manifest abundance (all while loving what I am doing!)

Day 21: Money is Energy

I had a really nice conversation with my wife about money today (which is great, since it is sometimes a sensitive topic) and we seem to be getting on the same page about how we are going to manifest money into our lives. Interestingly, our conversation revolved around the quintessentially practical matter of becoming aware of where our money goes each month. While being aware of expenditures and making a budget has probably been a no-brainer for many of you out there from the start, it’s not how we have been operating since we were married. One could say that generally we have been relatively frugal by nature but also have not passed up buying something we wanted if it seemed worthwhile. Now, however, with a real focus on bringing about abundance, we both feel keenly interested in making an account of all our monthly expenditures, which will inform our purchasing decisions in the near future. We are actually excited about this and look forward to playing the game of saving a bit each month from our current joint income.

While I have long maintained a philosophy of not forcing ourselves into a budget, I have started to feel that doing so would be a help (rather than a hindrance) to manifesting abundance. I got a real shot of confirmation a matter of minutes ago after watching this Bruce Lipton video:

It’s worth watching for an understanding of that famous phrase ‘money is energy’, but also because it really seemed like a different take on how we manifest from thought. Bruce explains that we need energy to live, and energy builds up inside us like money in a bank account; if we expend energy on useless things (useless thoughts) then they are not a good investment in our energetic future (health and well-being). Money, seen this way, is good to conserve, and spend only on those things that are life-enhancing. The same thing is the energy we devote to the thoughts we think, and choosing to let go of the thoughts that are not beneficial for us: hence, a real confirmation of the value of intense presence.

I have more or less practiced only spending money on things that enhance my life, but it has never been so clear to me that an active effort to conserve (save) money will actually CONTRIBUTE to the thought patterns that bring about the manifestation of more money, since the evidence of our own abundance keeps coming back to us in terms of accumulating savings (or reducing debt). This is a bit of a new thought for me about the whole business of abundance, and I’m glad I was guided towards it today, because it could start a big shift in this project.

Day 20: Personal Responsibility

Today I have my mojo back. It’s a calm enthusiasm and a feeling of being connected. And I think it came from a low point that culminated yesterday, after I had watched an entire basketball game online (while working on my blog, tsk, tsk). Although watching sports and rooting for the home team has pretty much been a lifelong diversion for me, I had to face the fact yesterday that this activity contributes to me not doing the work I am committed to. When one is seeking to experience unity, how can one not be pulled away when vesting an interest in the home team beating their opponents, going emotionally up and down with every made or missed shot as if it really mattered. Right now I can see that it doesn’t. And I can see that if I am going to write a blog detailing my personal work I had better be working, to the best of my ability, to enter into and maintain that state of at-one-ment. Just the decision for me to more fully take personal responsibility for that has helped to elevate me.

And speaking about personal responsibility, I would like to set down a marker for all would-be followers and commenters of my blog. As I detail my personal adventure of attempting to manifest abundance through focused attention and intention, it does not mean that I promote the abandoning of personal responsibility in one’s life for one’s welfare and the welfare of others in one’s care because one claims to have ‘faith’ that they will be taken care of by some higher power. I don’t believe just saying you have ‘faith’ means it is so. Faith is not giving away one’s power to a separate higher source but rather recognizing that each of us ultimately IS this higher source, and so can provide perfectly for ourselves.

No, this business of manifesting through intention is a little more sophisticated than wishing and hopeful prayer. And in the course of experimenting with manifesting, there is no reason to abandon practical actions and abdicate our personal responsibility to provide for ourselves and others in our care, for that is part of the raison-d’etre for being here.

That said, I feel like I am still in a clearing/healing phase of the adventure. I welcome the opportunity to be a conscious participant in this clearing of negative emotions, influences, and choices in my life, to soon reach the point where all cylinders are firing towards unity and abundance. I hope you can be a little patient and stay along for the ride!

Day 19: Healing

The idea that the mind is responsible for future events and circumstances in our life is more of a stretch than saying that our mind is responsible for what happens in our body. It is easier to fathom that the body is governed by the mind, and thereby mind activity can more easily be seen to have an effect on our body’s health and well-being.


Louise Hay

Louise Hay, in her book “You Can Heal Your Life”, came out with the idea that our body’s disease and illness can be traced to patterns of thought, but also that changing those patterns of thought through regular affirmations can heal those afflictions. Being more specific, she explains, “the mental thought patterns that cause the most dis-ease in the body are CRITICISM, ANGER, RESENTMENT and GUILT. For instance, criticism indulged in long enough will often lead to dis-eases such as arthritis. Anger turns into things that boil and burn and infect the body. Resentment long held festers and eats away at the self and ultimately can lead to tumors and cancer. Guilt always seeks punishment and leads to pain.”

I have always believed that one’s ability to manifest is greatly hampered if one is in need of healing. When I have difficulty being in the moment it often leads me back to wondering the extent to which I still need to go through my own healing process, given how often anger and resentment still seem to surface in my life. If I am to take full responsibility, I believe I need to pay attention if during the process of attempting to reach at-one-ment if it isn’t my own unhealed thought patterns that are getting in my way rather than the behavior of others and the circumstances I come across.

Certainly the fact that I almost always wake up with a tinge of sombre negativity is something that I will have to confront during this work. While I can usually snap out of it after being awake for 20-30 minutes, it is still a call for attention. I imagine if I could change this, awaken feeling refreshed and positive, that it would be a very short step to moving into intense presence and really enjoy imagining and visualizing and intending abundance.

Day 18: You Become What You See

Deepak Chopra once said. “The most creative act you will ever undertake is the act of creating yourself.” Essentially, that is the work going on here. Every day there is an examination of how I act, how I think, and how I process what goes on before me. The goal is to become more centered in the oneness of all things, out of which there is an intention to attract the experience of abundance (which, in a way, is automatic when you feel that you are a part of all things and all things are a part of you).


Deepak Chopra

But there is an interesting corollary to this act of self-creation. Deepak reminds us, “What you see you become. What you see is a selective act of attention and interpretation. Although you are inundated by billions of bits of sensory impulses every moment, you selectively filter out the vast majority, allowing only a very small fraction into your awareness. What you allow into your awareness is determined by your habitual patterns of seeing and interpreting the world.”

So while we are going about the business of self-creation by putting forth brave intentions, it is all very possible that we continue to pick up signs in our environment that support beliefs to the contrary. If I see in my environment  fragmentation, disorder, separation, then one can see how it would be difficult to bring forth the idea that I am at one with all things around me. It works the other way as well–when I am feeling connected to all things, I look upon my environment and notice the unity. And when I do notice disharmony, I am motivated to act in ways that enhance the harmony I naturally believe is there.

Let’s use the simple example of having a kitchen with dirty dishes and pots strewn all around. If I am in a state of disunity, this will look like an annoying mess. I will loathe the task of having to clean up, and will probably focus on blaming someone for it. If I am in a state of unity, I look forward to making the kitchen feel whole, putting everything in its proper place with confidence and enthusiasm.

But if at every turn there is energy to be expended to bring about this visual unity, it can start to wear at one’s own feeling of unity and bring one’s vibration down. For this reason, working to make sure the physical environment has a unity and a harmony to it could be an important part of maintaining and even helping to bring about that internal state of unity I am seeking. And that is now a part of my plan. I will not really be able to put this into effect until February 1st, when our family becomes the sole occupants of our living space. But when I do, I believe I will actively create a more harmonious and unified environment to give myself a greater opportunity to maintain a state of unity. I particularly envision welcoming the early morning sun with serenity and enthusiasm. For now, I vow to remain open to the valuable lessons my current situation brings.

Day 17: Be Here Now

Today was actually the first day that I read my intention affirmation aloud, and while it was nice to put that stake in the ground, it was immediately obvious that something more was needed. I’ve named it here before: intense presence, at-one-ment, it could also be called being centered, being grounded, being the observer, being in the vortex, or being in a high vibratory state. This morning my mind was not there and so there didn’t seem to be any power behind the intention, and it feels essential to bring myself into that state every day before setting my intention.


Ram Dass

I am reminded of the teachings of Ram Dass, who makes it all seem simple and elegant through his words: “Ask yourself: Where am I? Answer: Here. Ask yourself: What time is it? Answer: Now. Say it until you can hear it. Each time you do this, try to feel the immediacy of the Here and Now. Begin to notice that wherever you go or whatever time it is by the clock . . . it is always HERE and NOW. In fact you will begin to see that you can’t get away from the HERE and NOW. Let the clock and the earth do their ‘thing’ . . . let the comings and goings of life continue . . . But YOU stay HERE and NOW. This is an exercise to bring you to the ETERNAL PRESENT . . . where it all is.”

I do not underestimate the challenge of this. My old habits of seeking distraction, as well as the people and circumstances that I interact with in my day can pull me out of a state of presence very easily, even if I have gotten into it at some point during the day. I will say that circumstances have been difficult lately but they are set to improve very soon. An important thing will be to build my home environment to be conducive to supporting a state of presence, as well as establishing a better waking routine that will prevent me from just being thrown into the day. But all this is secondary having the desire to be in this state, the will as it were, whereby no circumstance has the power to distract any more.

So I plan on adding this to the beginning of my intention affirmation: “I’m taking this time to create my day, and first I allow my breathing to synchronize with the rhythms of the universe. I let go of all grievances if any are present, and am fully ready to accept the world exactly as it comes into my perception, trusting that the universe is bringing me what I need and, at a deeper level, what I have created. I am ready to Be Here Now.”

At this point I will pause as long as I need to, and then continue to read my intention. Will I find that I have to schedule this before the baby has woken up? Perhaps. This is still a work in progress. But I envision the day in which I can say I am waking up with a deep sense of wonder about creating my day exactly as I want.

Day 16: The Law of Attraction

Probably the fulcrum of this whole matter of manifestation or creating one’s reality is what is called The Law of Attraction. It states simply: That which is like unto itself, is drawn. When this is applied to our thoughts, and more specifically the attention we give to those thoughts, it means that our thoughts are constantly bringing things/experiences into our lives that resonate with those thoughts.


Esther Hicks

Esther Hicks describes it this way: “Because the Law of Attraction is responding to the thoughts that you hold at all times, it is accurate to say that you are creating your own reality. Everything that you experience is attracted to you because the Law of Attraction is responding to the thoughts that you are offering. Whether you are remembering something from the past, observing something in your present, or imagining something about your future, the thought that you are focused upon in your powerful now has activated a vibration within you—and the Law of Attraction is responding to it now.” However, she later adds, “Fortunately, here in your physical time-space reality, things do not manifest into your experience instantaneously. There is a wonderful buffer of time between when you begin to think about something and the time it manifests. That buffer of time gives you the opportunity to redirect your attention more and more in the direction of the things that you actually do want to manifest in your experience.”

Now there is obviously much more to be said about manifesting specific things in your life. In what makes the most sense to more practical people, the thoughts of intention about something are matched with words of intention about that thing, and the words of intention about it are matched with actions of intention about it. And so the individual is wholeheartedly involved on all levels in the attraction of something into their life. And this seems like the most palatable description of manifesting for most people. I’m reminded of an old joke about a poor man who goes to church every day and prays before the statue of a great saint, begging, “Dear saint-please, please, please…give me the grace to win the lottery.” This lament goes on for months. Finally the exasperated staue comes to life, looks down at the begging man and says in weary disgust, “My son-please, please, please…buy a ticket.”

Now as I mentioned in the introduction, I am taking the opportunity to create an intention for abundance whereby only limited action is possible, since I am a stay-at-home dad for 2015. So in a way I am consciously making it a bigger challenge. But while the end goal is abundance, the main purpose of the exercise is the experience of intense presence and focused intention which I will then be sharing with my readers. And so while there may be some of you out there warning me not to ‘waste my time’, trust that no matter what the end result is, this will be anything but a waste of time for either myself or for my readers, since it will give us a chance to really go in depth into the nature of creative human power.